Holy Crap, it's almost been a month....

I went back to school on Aug. 4 and it seems like it's all been a whirlwind since then.  Coming back to work was definitely hard.  It's just so hard to leave the kids, when they are everything that is most precious to me.  However, it's been a lot easier to go back to work this time.  I give a lot of that credit to how much I love my job and the people I work with.  Also, Sarah Tate (Ella's baby sitter) is the one watching Eli.  She isn't a total stranger to me now, and I trust her, so that makes it easier. 

Ella started preschool today.  I prepared myself for an awful goodbye, as Ella is the master of all guilt trips (and I thought I was good at them!).  She told me, "I will cry when you leave.  I'm scared."  I tried explaining that it wasn't a scary place, but a friendly place.  Really though, I am such a hypocrit.  I cried last night for her.  I hate that she has to go to a brand new place and make all new friends.  I hate that I'm the one putting her in that position.  I feel scared when I walk into a room where I don't know anyone too, and I also feel like crying.  How can I tell her that it's not scary?  I know this is a part of life, and she'll be stronger for it.  I'd rather just cuddle up all day and read books with her though.....In reality, she was fine.  She was excited to see the toys.  I got a hug, a kiss, and a high 5 with a "Bye Mom!  I love you!"  When did she get so big? 

Here's a recent picture of the kids:

Sad news: my parents put Bridget down the other day.  It's sad having to explain it to your child AGAIN.  Now Bridget is playing bouncy ball in Heaven with Cheyanne and Great-Grandpa Johnson.  Thank goodness she has a great memory and I don't have to re-explain every time what is going on.  Just that they are old and got sick.

On a lighter note, we went to Kevin McAfee's boat races last weekend.  TONS of fun.  Ella came back and announced, "I'm a MAC ATTACK girl!"  She had such a great time.  We all did really.  Although, I did forget the bubbles at the camper and Ella made sure to ask for them because she had them last year.  Seriously?  You're two.  You were one then....how do you remember this stuff crazy girl?!  I have memories as a 2yo, but I think her memory may be even better than mine.

Okay, that may be all for now.  I'll TRY, really try, to keep current in this. :)